Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
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7:21 pm - strike that.
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7:21 pm - jayson
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Friday, May 26th, 2006
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1:26 am
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Saturday, May 20th, 2006
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9:42 am
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Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
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11:42 pm - Getting old shall probably kill me.
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Saturday, January 28th, 2006
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10:54 am - This is how it is...
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So I'm a human, the kid that when you shave all their hair off and put them naked in front of a mirror, the don't look so good.
And my family, my school, this crap is like the water pounding out of the shower. And I'm hopelessly trying to hold onto this lovely clean fresh soap, which is my good intentions, but its gets more and more slippary. and then i just cant be fucked.
Yay. analogy complete.
I just had a shower.
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10:10 am - Egghead Cuntsnarl
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Doh Soph.
I love you you so much.
When we are in a nursing home together. We can put pins on all the grumpy old fucks seats... and they'll sit down, but because they're old and rickety the won't be able to jump up. And all they're numb mouldy flesh will sink down around the pin and all they're insides will leak out.
And we'll run off screeching with laughter.
So... I love you. I don't say we anymore.
I hurt all the time pretty much.
Home hurts me.
But, I love you and emma and Michael.
"You have built up such a wall of resentment and agnst that it poisons your relationships with all those around you. There is nothing that we, as your family can do to please you. And we do everything that we can possibly think of to try and make you happy." says my grandma as she spits her smelly saliva all over my lovely bed and newly washed hair.
Yes.
I'll have a short period of hating myself for being stupid enough to think that anything would change at home. And then I'll go back to not giving a shit and failing year 11.
I miss you ok?
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Friday, January 27th, 2006
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10:19 pm - Renewed Attempt. [i wrote this but didnt post it. from Jan 24th]
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Ew. Right so. There's something that I need to say but I'm not quite sure what it is.
Im slipping back into my "I don't care" frame of mind again. Just in time for school. Which need i say is not very good. Not very good at all.
I've been so safe up here. Away from everybody. Except for msn. And i have a small lapse in my happiness after i have signed out. As the conversations I have had seep in, and then I'm okay again. Back to my tennis and concentrating on drinking enough water.
My grandma just used the word jovial. Id forgotten it really existed. Not the word.. the actual thing.
I would love to be Jovial.
Okay. The purpose of this was to stop me from thinking. That hasn't worked.
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
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11:47 pm - attempt.
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livejournal is too honest for me.
Therefore I dont use it.
Is anybody surprised.
I mis you two.
mmk?
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Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
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4:48 pm - Fuck
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hueufwfdfbwyfgucdusfhchdfufbjdkdcysdgah
Ok. So right now it feels like there's this little vaccuum cleaner thing inside me, and its sucking everything into me... and i have to try to keep me whole so that i dont get sucked in and become nothing..
But i dont care, and its hurting.
And.. yes.
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5:06 am
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I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot.
I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The proper function of man is to live, not to exist.
Jack London
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5:06 am - Whatever our souls are made up of, his and mine are the same.
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Monday, December 26th, 2005
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1:32 am - This House is Named Llewellyn
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Saturday, December 24th, 2005
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12:25 am - Take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find.
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Friday, December 23rd, 2005
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2:02 pm - My Little Brother is Going to be a Mass Murderer...
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Yep. Pretty much the truth.
Danny is crazy.
Like psycho, going to grow up and kill someone because theyre wearing a pink polo.
That's my boy.
And Josh...
He's going to grow up to be one of those recluse crazy people.
Like the guy in One Hour Photo.
Except i cant imagine my 12 year old brother having any sexual fantasies.
And Ella will be come a Stella Bitch.
Gosh..
At least Ella and Dan will be somewhat attractive.
And Josh might be too if he looses some weight.
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